The other day when friend Maddie came over to play and I was putting sunscreen on you all, you broke my heart. You said to Maddie, not knowing I'd overhear, "I wish you were from Haiti, Maddie. That would be cool if you were from Haiti. I wish somebody else was from Haiti around here." You said the last part with that joking little voice you use, but I could see in your eyes as you looked at your skin compared to hers that it hurt you to feel different.
I think that most of the time you know how truly handsome you are. I hope you know that. I don't think you have a problem with the color of your skin or the color of anybody's skin. You made dad and I laugh in the car on Sunday when we were playing "I Spy". It was Dad's turn and he said, "I spy with my little eye something brown..." and before he could even finish giving his clue you shouted gleefully, "ME!!!" It wasn't you, but it was a good guess and it made me think again about how aware you are becoming of things that I didn't think you would be aware of for much longer. You know your skin is beautiful, its the being different part that is hard some times.
I am so grateful that you are my son. I think that in Heaven you must have been so noble. The Lord had a plan for us and your part was going to be extra difficult. I can picture you volunteering to do it to save your siblings any pain. That is how you always are now, so I'm sure it wasn't any different then. Even today when I was telling Addie that she needed to clean her room, you said to me resolutely, "Mom, its okay. She doesn't need to do it. I will clean her room for her." I didn't let you do that, but you would have done it just to make her happy and me happy. You like to do things that you think will make our home more peaceful, even if it means a sacrifice on your part. You were meant to be a part of our family. We need you and we love you.
I hope you always know that the Lord loves you. I wish I could take away any of the times where looking different hurts you. I wish you could also know how every place we go I see women smile with delight at how absolutely gorgeous you are.
I also wish that everybody could know how clever and funny you are. You love to be silly and you are getting so smart. And sometimes you say things that are very funny with out realizing that they are funny. Last week when Dad's PlayStation 3 FINALLY arrived in the mail, you cheered and shouted, "I knew it! I knew it would get here before Isaiah was resurrected!"
My dear, sweet, beautiful, Haitian Sensation, I am so happy we belong to each other!
Love,
Mom
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Dear Loumy,
Posted by Perla at 9:55 PM
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Oh your sweet Loumy is so beautiful! I worried about that myself... having a child have to stand on his own. I guess I was a little too concerned, so the Lord sent a lot of back up. lol They will still have the same challanges and pains that Loumey has to deal with. There is no way to avoid that once they are home. Your Loumy is doing so well!
The first fundraiser we attended for our orphanage, there were some seasoned families helping out. At one point I remember saying that I couldn't wait to have our children home... once they were home everything would be better! The mom's pretty much simoutaneously said that there will be whole new set of trials and pains for our children. I feel that your letter shares this very well. Your sweet Loumy is quiet the leader. He was sent forth during this time, already doing so much good at his tender age. Thank you for sharing. ~Mare
Oh that was so precious, he was definitely meant to be in your family! What a neat post:)
We love that little Loumy too. I must say that Marley is going to be one lucky girl when they get married.
what sweet words to your loumy. :) you made me cry.
Oh I love that boy of yours, and he is 100% all boy. Even in that cute picture of him wearing your high heels, he was still manly. I could feel your words. My four little kids have and still from time to time have the same worries, or pains from being different. Even Allie who seems to revel in her uniqueness, still has some struggles. Kiss your little man for me.
I don't know how you do it, but I am crying and laughing at the same time. That little man means so much to me. Please kiss him and hug him from aunt Megan. I just love this post and will say extra prayers that his differentness will just become something he is so proud of and happy about. I am sure when he gets slightly older and every girl in the universe loves him he might worry less and less.
Oh man! I am crying my eyes out right now! What a sweet letter to your dear son. We all hope the best for our kids and never want them to feel insecure about themselves. It is awesome that you have each other and that in turn we all get to benefit from your relationship as you share him in our lives as well. he is an awesomely special little boy and I love him!
Sometimes I wonder... in the hereafter will we lose our skin differences? In contemplating that question I have come to the conclusion that I hope we don't! Sure...Loumy would still be Loumy and my children would still be my children, but...They are so beautiful the way they are and I often wish I could look like them...just imagine...no sunburns for one thing! hee, hee...
Your post was precious. Everytime you write about Loumy it takes me back to those days that I shared with you in Haiti. They will always be precious memories to me.
C
I missed Loumy and his brother pic last visit oh how cute. What a blessing for Finn(y)...sorry couldnt resist the y
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