Random Update

I have no idea how I used to have time to blog often. I want to blog all the time and I take photos and want to post them and I want to work on my blog books and my photo albums and I want to check facebook to see how everybody is doing, and, to be honest, I feel left out when I see everybody laughing and joking about a comment. But I just have no time right now. I need to figure it out because blogging is important to me because it is my only journal right now. And journaling is important. Hm...my days right now are consumed from 6:40 to 8:30 with taking care of kids and house. Then I have that time after that to reconnect with Chancho, catch up on Haitian Roots stuff, read my scriptures, maybe do a bit of indexing, and then I have to go to sleep or I will be so tired the next morning and it will be hard to treat the kids right. Hm...I'm sure just spewing out some thoughts right now, but that's what a journal is for, right?

I've been having some anxiety but stopped taking a certain supplement that I believe was causing an allergic reaction in my brain. By the way, I am becoming more and more convinced that my mental health is completely related to allergies. More on that later. Maybe. If I have time. Since stopping that particular supplement a few days ago my anxiety has decreased dramatically. That's good.

Despite being so busy, I'm mostly happy. I think I'm happy because I feel like I am a better mom than I've been. I have more fully surrendered to motherhood, which has always been a goal of mine. I've been a little better at making choices to play a game with Finn rather than vacuum. I've been willing to make the kids lunches this week if they want them rather than insisting on school lunch. I've made dinner every night for the past two weeks. We've been saying morning prayers as a family. We were always good at night time but not morning. That has made a difference. Very small things it may seem, but to me and our home, very big things that have increased my confidence as a mother.

A word about the heat. Most people have asked about how we've been surviving the summer here in Texas. Well, its been a bit of a beating. It kind of feels like how things are in those long winter months back home. I really can't wait for it to cool down so we can get outside again! This is been one of the hottest summers in over 40 years, I think. Or maybe longer. It gets up to at least 110 most days, sometimes hotter. If it is only 105, then that is great because it means our air conditioner will be able to cool the house down to below 80. There is also a drought. It hasn't rained for months. This morning at 5am I got up to feed Lila and I heard thunder. I got so excited! Deedle even woke up and came to sleep with us because the thunder work her. However, it never rained. Lawns and greenbelts and fields are all dead and unhappy looking. I'd really like some rain. But for the most part, its just really not that bad when you live in this day and age. I keep thinking about the first Texans, out farming and trying to get along. How in the world did they work out in this heat all day and then go inside and still have it be so hot? I'm sure their bodies adapted in part, but sheesh. We're pretty spoiled with our ac in our houses and cars. But its not the greatest. Like I mentioned, this house isn't insulated and the ac is pretty weak so it stays over 80 a lot of days. That is warm. The car is great--after it gets cooled but in the meantime, I have sweat through all of my layers of clothes and feel pretty gross. Anyway...that's the weather. And that's all I have to say right now. I really hope to have time to do a post about all the big things that SC has been doing and how fast Lila is growing and lots of other things. I'll try my best.