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Thank you all for being supportive of my little fit regarding my father-in-law. I went to see him Tuesday and he defended himself by saying, "Well, I really wasn't sure. If I was sure then of course I would have told you, but it was very suspicious and I was leaning towards a boy, I just don't like to say anything if I'm not positive." So, we took another look. Sweet little baby kept putting a hand in front of the genital area as if asking, "Um, a little privacy please?" But we kept jiggling my tummy around until Dhost would move the hand...and still nothing definite. If anything Guy said now he was leaning more towards a girl...but unsure. The 3D part of his machine is broken right now, so that didn't help either. I was patient for 48 more hours and tried it again this afternoon. We still can't tell. Poor 4 inch little baby just wants to be left alone to grow for awhile. I promise to be patient and not get another ultrasound for at least...one more week.

I'm kind of glad this has happened, though, because it has helped me to analyze my feelings more. Deep in my heart I still hope this is a girl because it truly feels like a girl is missing from our family. As we looked at boy names the other night, Chancho could not agree on a single name he even remotely liked. But then after Tuesday when Guy was leaning more towards it being a girl again, Chancho seemed happy and peaceful as he asked if I had thought of any middle names and suggested one that he really liked and it just fit perfectly together. He said her whole name (privacy be damned) "Sarah Jane Cox" and we both just smiled and I felt joy shoot through me. So, here's the deal, at least how I see it right now. If this is a boy, then that is great. That means that the Lord has a bigger family planned for us than I thought might be possible a few years ago. We would have to have a very strong experience or feeling telling us that our family was complete after having a boy for us to not continue to wait for Sarah. And if this is Sarah, then I will be so happy. And Chancho will tell me that for sure for sure we are done having children. And then it will take a very very strong experience for the Lord to convince us that she was not the last (if she's not). At this point, I still can't wait to find out which way the path is going, but I feel peace in my faith and I truly do believe that as long as our hearts and minds are open then the children that are meant to be a part of our family will eventually all be together. If it's a boy now, then that is a happy surprise. If it is our little girl, then I feel a swell of relief that I don't have to worry longer regarding her whereabouts. I'll keep ya'll updated.